Jesus In The Female Form.

Yes, Lea Michele. I know I know, I've already posted a blog about her. But, it's time for another one. 'Why?' you ask? Well, because I met her. Yes, you read that right. I, Rebecca Anne Schroeder, met Lea Michele. It was beautiful. She is beautiful. I can not even believe I actually got to meet her. She is honestly my idol and my inspiration. I can't wrap my mind around it. I was so excited all day to meet her and when it was finally our turn to go into Hot Topic I almost lost it. I remember not being able to see anything because I was behind a bunch of tall people, but all of a sudden, it was like GOD intervened. He parted the red seas of tall people and Heaven shined it's light down onto her. She is so much more beautiful than I would have ever imagined. First, Dianna Agron signed my poster and she was super sweet, then Lea looked at me and said 'Hi there!' and all I could get out was "You're beautiful." She signed my Glee poster, signed my Spring Awakening playbill from March 25, 2008 when I saw her in New York. We were talking about Broadway and Spring Awakening and she said she had just gotten off the phone with Jon Groff and I about lost it. Then we had one more mission, we had to sing. I counted it off and we all started singing 'Happy Birthday' to Lea. Her birthday was the next day and I guess nobody had sang to her because she was so shocked and surprised. She started laughing and when we were done she stood up, and it took me a while to register what she was doing. I realized that she was hugging us. First, she hugged Spencer, then Jonathan, then (God must really have been there) she hugged me! I was so excited. Lea Michele hugged me. And not one of those lame 'I'm Famous' hugs. No. A legit, strong, beautiful hug. I told her I loved her and she is such an inspiration to me. Then I ran outside and started jumping up and down because I couldn't even believe what had just happened. At the Q&A after the signing, we started singing Happy Birthday to her again! Then someone asked who they would love to see make a guest appearance on Glee and they talked about Kristin Chenoweth and Justin Timberlake and we started shouting "Jonathan Groff!!!" and Lea looked at us and said "Well, he might make an appearance, so, keep your fingers crossed!" And I went nuts. I love him. And her. Oh yeah, and Lea said that hopefully they would be making a movie of Spring Awakening! And Lea would be Wendla if it actually happened! That would be fantastic and I would watch it every night.

Ok, Lea Michele Sarfati is seriously one of my favorite people. I have always idolized her, I mean, who wouldn't? But now that I have met her, I know she is one of the sweetest people I have ever met. She is a fabulous human being and I am so glad I met her. I have loved her for a very long time, and even though I saw her in Spring Awakening (fifth row, center), i had accepted the fact that I would never meet her. She is beautiful inside and out and I love her so much.  I will honestly never ever ever ever ever forget that day. August 28th, 2009. 

All Moved In!

So, it's official, I am a resident at Cal State Long Beach. It's so weird. For the most part, all of my stuff is put away, I just have to hang up a few more items of clothing. It is so weird actually being out on my own. I slept here last night and it wasn't to weird, only a little. Arielle is really nice. She's a dancer too, so things should work out, once we get past the awkward "I just met you and I'm living with you..." stage. But everything will be fine. I took a shower in the communal bathroom. That was kinda weird, but I was lucky because it was at 1:30 in the morning so there was nobody else in there with me. I still have yet to eat in the dining hall. I'm sort of nervous about that especially because of all of my food allergies. I don't want to be a problem and cause a scene, but I do need to eat something. It's quite the predicament I'm in. But I guess after a few weeks I will get in the swing of things and I will know what's going on. Tomorrow is the first day of classes. Monday and Wednesday I have History 101 from 12:30 to 1:45 and Dance 102 from 2:00 to 3:15. And Tuesday and Thursday I have Music 190 from 9:30 to 10:45, Geography 100 from 11:00 to 12:15, and Dance 115 from 3:30 to 5:10. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I don't have any classes, I really lucked out. I'm actually really nervous about classes. See, in high school, especially in the Business Academy, all I did was make friends with my teachers. And, if I didn't have an assignment done, I would just ask to turn it in later and since they were my friends, the always said 'yes.' But, I have a feeling thats not the way it will work here. And it really worries me that I pre-ordered my books and they didn't give me books for History or Geography. You would think those are the two classes you definitely need books for. I guess not. So yeah, it's all really happening now. It's pretty scary. But I guess I'll get used to it. Until next time!

Lea Michele Sarfati

Lea Michele is best known for her work as Wendla in Spring Awakening and Rachel Berry in the Fox hit TV show Glee. And I'm meeting her! TODAY! OH MY GOD! I love her so much, and I finally get tot meet her. You all have no idea how much I love her. She is Jesus in the female form, as Sara called her. I get to meet her today and I am on the verge of tears right now and I haven't even seen her yet. OMG. RAWR! Ok, it's my last day in Whittier, and what better way to spend it?! But, I leave you with a video that clearly shows why I am obsessed with Lea Michele.

this is what

fear and insecurity looks like.

Tattoo?

So I have been thinking about a tattoo for a long long time. I want something that is meaningful, obviously, but I am just trying to tie everything in. First of all, I want a cross. Getting a cross makes sense because it is something I will never ever ever regret. Even if I loose everything, I will sill have my faith. I want a cross behind my left ear. Behind my ear because it can be secluded if necessary, and my left side because it's close to my heart. So that is one idea. The other one I want is a flower. I know that sounds cheesy and lame, but it would mean something to me. I don't know if I want it on my wrist or on my side. I can't explain the flower yet, I still have a few things in my life to sort out before I even begin to explain that, let alone seriously think about it. Although I could never get a tattoo this large, these are my favorite flower and cross tattoos. Until next time! God Bless

KIlling Time

I'm waiting for my Twin to come over so we can go to Girl's Night. Today was an interesting day. I packed a lot of my clothes and necessities for living on my own. I also said goodbye to my oldest friend. Karin Bryeans leaves for Wagner College in New York tomorrow morning. I met Karin when I was in 7th grade and she is still one of my closest friends. I can't believe she is leaving already. And what is even weirder to think about, is that I would have been leaving this week for New York too. Well, if I actually went to the university that I was planning on attending. I am so happy for her, but it makes me sad to think that that could have been me. I really wanted to go to NY, more than anything I wanted to go. But it didn't work out I guess. I guess I just have to suck it up because I know I am lucky enough to be going to Long Beach. A whole lot of kids didn't get into that school, and my parents are still paying for me, so I shouldn't complain. But i just can't help but be sad about it. Who knows, maybe in two years? I don't know. Anyway, I have three days left in Whittier so I am going to make the best of them. Sara should be here any minute but I leave you with two things. 

1. A verse I found on the cover of a journal at Ross:

"Thou art my hope, O Lord God" -Psalm 71:5

2. My favorite dance:

Meet My Best Friend!

Her name is Sara Jean Falaro. We just recently became best friends, but she is still my best friend none the less. I think she is a fabulous person, I don't know where I would be right now without her. She can make me laugh when I feel the worst about myself. And believe me, that is all to often. I now understand how it feels to have a best friend. I mean, I have had best friends in the past, but this time it is somehow... different. It all started back in middle school. We did a musical together and in the musical we became best friends, and it is so weird that four years later, it's actually true. I mean, we didn't really talk all that much in the past four years, but just this past summer we did 'Anything Goes' together and got really close. She would text me all the time and make me feel better. She somehow knew what I was thinking and what I was going through. Then after the final performance of 'Anything Goes' we had a sleepover at her house. The rest of the girls and I all opened up and shared our deepest darkest secrets. I said things I had never even had the courage to write down in a diary, once I had really opened up, Sara was right there with me. I had no idea she had gone through everything I went through, and am still going through right now. Every time I need her, all I have to do is text her, and she is there for me, ready to listen, or make me laugh, or do whatever she needs to do to help me. This past week has been a roller coaster ride, but every single day she is there for me. I'm sort of surprised to see she is still here, seeing as how I'm crazy and all. But I am so lucky she is. She is such an amazing person and everyone should get to know her. She is so funny, caring, and understanding. Even today, I was pissed at my parents once again, so she invited me over, at midnight, and we hung out until 3 in the morning just laughing, talking, and taking pictures. All in all, she is a phenomenal human being and I couldn't have a better person for a Bestie, Twin, or Best Friend.

Sara- "You're a nice bear. Friends?"

Me- "Friends!"

I'm a trend starter!

I'm really kind of stoked that i started this blogging trend among my friends :) I told one person I had started a blog, and now everyone's statuses on Facebook is "I started a blog on blogger.com!" It makes me really excited! Anywho. On a more serious note, my wallet was stolen out of my car on Friday evening and California High School. Can I just say that I went to al for 4 years, 2 of those years I drove there, and the summer after I graduate is when my shit gets stolen. Stupid. Anyway, I called the police department just now to file a report because I did have some important things in there such as my license, CSULB ID, debit card, gas card, library card, all that good stuff. Dad wanted a police report so that in case the people who stole it used my gas card, we wouldn't have to pay. But, the nice lady at the Sheriff Department said that it isn't a crime unless they actually used it so I would have to get a statement from the gas company to prove it was used since Friday. So, fun fact of the day: theft is NOT a crime! Who knew? I sure didn't. So, I am definitely mad about that. So now I have to find a way to get gas, because I drive all over the place, I have to get a new LB ID, license, and library card. So I'm off to get a new library card, and to see if the bank will give money to a 17 year old kid with no parents and no identification. Ha. Anyway, till next time!

I'm new at this!

So, I am definitely knew at this. I have no clue what this is really for, but I just wanted a place to talk about everything I don't have anyone to talk to about. So, lets start with the basics, my name is Rebecca, but you can call me Becca. I'm a freshman at Cal State Long Beach and my biggest goal is to start typing correctly. Like capitalizing the beginning of sentences, the letter I, and also using correct punctuation and spelling. I will be moving into the dorms at CSULB and I am sort of nervous. I know I'm ready to move on with my life, but I can't help but be scared to move into a tiny room with someone I have never met before. I am pretty sure I will do fine living on my own, but I think I have a reasonable amount of fear. I think the fact that my older brother is still living at home will push me to keep going and to make through all of the fear and doubts that I have about moving out and moving on with my life. Honestly, I feel as though I am no longer a child. I know I will still be the crazy, giggly girl I have always been, but after next Saturday, everything will be different.