As of June 26th...

So it's been almost a month since I posted my 'Summer To Do List' and so far I have completed 7 things! I need help finishing the rest!

1. Watch the sunrise

2. Go horseback riding

3. Have a photo shoot

4. Go shooting

5. Go to five different clubs

6. Stay out until 6 in the morning

7. Loose 10 pounds

8. Learn to skateboard

9. Sing and play Gravity by Sara Barellies on the piano

10. Go on a date

11. Drive around singing at the top of my lungs

12. Go shopping

13. Get massages and facials

14. Work

15. Take a road trip

16. Go to the beach

17. Sleep for twelve hours

18. Have a sleepover

19. Have a picnic

20. Have a barbecue

21. Go to Disneyland

22. Volunteer at a homeless shelter

23. Walk my dog with my friends' dogs

24. Plant a garden

25. Buy a Slip N' Slide

26. Go to lunch with my mom

27. Tye-Dye shirts

28. Master a vegan chocolate cake

29. Have a tea party

30. Go to Raging Waters

31. Have a water balloon fight war

32. Trim my hair

33. See Suburban Legends

34. Cook breakfast for my dad

35. Watch the stars from my roof

36. Late night Molca Salsa mission

37. Buy some fabulous sunglasses

38. Get at least something of a tan

39. Forgive certain people

40. Watch the clouds

41. Read three books

42. Make smoothies

43. Go to Concerts In The Park

44. Stop biting my nails

45. Go to an aquarium (as long as there are no whales)

46. Take over my street with sidewalk chalk

47. Watch fireworks

48. Fly a kite

49. Go cosmic bowling

50. Drink lots and lots of Slurpees.

Things I Want To Do This Summer!

I was just talking about summer, and I realized there are so many things I want to do! If you want to help me cross one off the list, hit me up!

In no particular order:

1. Watch the sunrise

2. Go horseback riding

3. Have a photo shoot

4. Go shooting

5. Go to five different clubs

6. Stay out until 6 in the morning

7. Loose 10 pounds

8. Learn to skateboard

9. Sing and play Gravity by Sara Barellies on the piano

10. Go on a date

11. Drive around singing at the top of my lungs

12. Go shopping

13. Get massages and facials

14. Work

15. Take a road trip

16. Go to the beach

17. Sleep for twelve hours

18. Have a sleepover

19. Have a picnic

20. Have a barbecue

21. Go to Disneyland

22. Volunteer at a homeless shelter

23. Walk my dog with my friends' dogs

24. Plant a garden

25. Buy a Slip N' Slide

26. Go to lunch with my mom

27. Tye-Dye shirts

28. Master a vegan chocolate cake

29. Have a tea party

30. Go to Raging Waters

31. Have a water balloon fight war

32. Trim my hair

33. See Suburban Legends

34. Cook breakfast for my dad

35. Watch the stars from my roof

36. Late night Molca Salsa mission

37. Buy some fabulous sunglasses

38. Get at least something of a tan

39. Forgive certain people

40. Watch the clouds

41. Read three books

42. Make smoothies

43. Go to Concerts In The Park

44. Stop biting my nails

45. Go to an aquarium (as long as there are no whales)

46. Take over my street with sidewalk chalk

47. Watch fireworks

48. Fly a kite

49. Go cosmic bowling

50. Drink lots and lots of Slurpees.

Must Be Summer...

My foot already hurts, and I can barely get out of bed in the morning. Love it :) Seriously this summer might be pretty awesome. Gym, dance, choreograph, rehearsal, piano, skateboarding, swimming, clubbing, partying. Pretty much stoked :)

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I hate that I get so sad. That I get caught up in what other people are doing with there lives and that I compare it to what I'm doing. Nothing. I hate it. I feel like people can say all the nice things they want, but the reality is it doesn't mean anything. I hate all the lies I ever believed. And all the lies I know I'm going to believe in the future. I just hate it. Sleep is about the only thing I don't hate right now. So that's where I'll be. Asleep.

Goodbye, Colonel.

So. My grandpa died. He's gone. It's weird. I've never known anyone that died. Not personally, anyway. It's just really crazy.

He had liver cancer. He told us about it, but was pretty optimistic about the whole thing. Then we found out his cancer was untreatable so he only had three months left. After planning to take off for a week in May to go to Texas and see him, everything changed. Monday night I found out that he wouldn't make it to May so my mom was flying to Texas by herself. But I really really wanted to go. So me and Mom planned to fly to Texas on today. Last night, we were at Target shopping for things we needed to take with us. When we were leaving Target, my mom gets a phone call from her brother. Grandpa had a stroke. His wife didn't think he would make it through the night, but my uncle thought he would, but he wouldn't remember us if he did wake up. So we still planned on leaving today and going to see him. Last night at about 10:30, my brother called me and said "Grandpa Peter passed away."

He died before I even got to see him. I haven't seen him in 10 years, he doesn't even know who I am. I just wanted to go and say hi. I wanted him to know who it is that he has been sending birthday cards to for 18 years. Thats what I most regret about this whole thing. I hate that he has no idea who I am.

But, in a way, I'm glad it's done. We don't have to worry about his health and if he made it through the night. He's not in pain anymore, which is the best thing I suppose.

I keep telling my mom that only good news can come now. Once you go through a period of bad news, there is always good news. I just wish the good news would happen sooner.

R.I.P Colonel Peter Barrett

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The past couple of days...

Have been interesting to say the least. It's been a rough weekend. I had a little bit of a mental break down Sunday night, and had another one today. But whatevs. It's in the past, right?

There are a few moments this week that have made me smile:

1) The Secret Life of Bees. Bee-utiful movie. I laughed, I cried, it was just amazing. I was not a fan of Dakota Fanning until I saw that movie.

2) Chris Brown's new CD, 'Graffiti.' Yes, I know he beat Rhianna up, and I don't support that. But I justify it because I didn't pay for his new CD. I LOVE Frostwire :)

3) I realized that douche bags will always be DOUCHE BAGS! I don't know why I give people second chances, they just screw me over like they did the first time. But honestly, I'm not sad, or angry or anything about the whole situation. I'm happy that one more stress is out of my life. I don't need a boy to be happy. SO now he is free to do whatever it is he wants to do, like go to parties instead of hanging out with me. But hey, at least now he doesn't have to lie to me about it, because I'm done with him. Forever.

4) A wonderful little website called picnik.com. It is this website where you can upload your pictures and edit them all cute. Of course, the cutest things are reserved for "Premium Members" which is $25 a year. But that's not bad considering that something like Photoshop is like $150. But heres a picture I edited on this website. I took it from the top of the Empire State Building when I visited New York last May with Business Academy. I miss them.

"Home is where the heart is meant to be" is from a beautiful Scott Alan song called 'Home' from his album 'Dreaming Wide Awake.'

I've decided to rid my life of all the evils that inhabit it. So, here is another picture I did on that fancy little website I discovered today :)